With a little less than an hour of 2019 left, I thought I’d come to the one place in the blogsphere where I feel I can truly be myself and reflect upon the year.
Honestly, I see some people reflecting on the year and having truly amazing things to ponder over, or some really not so great things they’d rather forget. As for me? I don’t really feel like I have… anything!
This year was really like any other year honestly. I could very easily dwell and call out how this year was so much more anxiety inducing that previous years (which it certainly has felt that way, I have no idea why I’m not coping as well as I used to..) and how further away from true happiness I currently feel. But…. a lot of it is in my head. Like a lot.
So 2019 from my perspective.
For some reason work has stressed me out a lot more than all my previous working years, yet the actual work itself and environment has got to be one of the most relaxed I’ve ever had. So what gives with the anxiety levels? Hopefully 2020 gives me better answers around that.
Honestly what probably hasn’t helped is what I’ve felt was a general decline in “success” around all my side hustles outside of work. Maybe I’m too thinly spread? Maybe I haven’t worked out what my true calling is? Maybe 2019 was just a sucky year? Either way, probably my biggest focus for 2020 will be to figure out what’s wrong and hopefully turn it all around.
On the flip side, I did a lot of fantastic travel during 2019. Kicking off the year in Tokyo, Japan. Spending Easter in New York and then Los Angeles. Spending my Melbourne Cup in some of the most beautiful and scenic parts of New Zealand! And I know any sort of travel, especially given my frequency is a true blessing that I am very grateful for.
So here’s to 2019! Just another year. Maybe 2020 will be better?